I heard the news of Cory Monteith's passing this morning. Actually, I had a text from a friend at 2am, but I missed it. I woke up to Facebook messages and more texts and then sat in disbelief as I read the news stories.
I feel a little silly to admit that I've cried as I watched Glee videos on Youtube and read and watched tributes on Twitter. I'm not the target demographic, but Glee is more than a tv show to me.
I watch Glee with my kids. There are few shows we watch together, but Glee is one of them. When your kids are teens, you know it's hard to get them to spend time with you sometimes, but Glee was our one hour a week to have fun.
For me, Glee brought back memories of my own from my junior high and high school show choir experiences. I can tell you that if we'd had a cool teacher like Mr. Schu who let us sing such awesome songs, I never would have quit! Music really saved me in high school and watching Glee helped me remember that.
On days when I was having a really BAD day, I could turn on Glee and have 60 minutes of happy times. Glee was my happy place. This past season not as much, but in the past, for sure.
Now without Finn...without Cory...I don't know what Glee will be. I really did bawl my eyes out when Finn put Rachel on that train and drove off to enlist in the army. I cried when they kinda, sorta got back together. I cheered when he beat the crap out of Brody for her. Now, there's no Finn to save Rachel. No Finn to give her that magical wedding we all knew as coming and even sadder in reality since Cory and Lea were to be married for REAL.
No, I didn't know Cory. I don't pretend that I do. I can still be sad. I can still say he carved a place in my heart. It's a spot owned by Glee. I don't care if I'm a forty-something mom who is way out of their target demographics.
Tomorrow I'm going to get a slushie and think of Cory.
Tonight, I will remember this song. It was Cory's first performance and also his last.